Izzybella Falls on Face, Goes Boom

After receiving my B.F.A. in Theatre Arts, I was so tired of acting I never wanted to get on a stage ever again. Thing was by the time I got to my senior year I was bored. I found acting dull. Tedious. Tiresome. Dreary. I was doing what felt like an endless litany of the same plays with the same actors, playing the same types of characters. It wasn't fun anymore. One of my professors was big on saying, "If you aren't having fun, you aren't doing it right. There's a reason they call it a "play," people!" Since I wasn't having fun, I figured I was done.

Cut to:

Two months ago I came across a script called "Kimberly Akimbo" by David Lindsey-Abaire. It's an amazing play and I strongly recommend it if you ever have a chance to catch it. When I found out a local theatre was holding auditions for it, I suddenly felt a very strong urge to be on stage again. So off I went to the auditions feeling oh so cocky and confident. Because after all, I have a *degree* and many performance credits to my name and I am so talented. In case you were wondering, humble pie tastes a little tart and lemony. I was **horrible** at the auditions. What my sister might refer to as suck-tacular. I was invited to callbacks, but not because the director was actually considering me. (I might think less of him if I discovered he was) I think it was more of a professional courtesy type of thing since we'd once worked together in the past. I appreciated it, continued to suck mightily at auditions, was dismissed at the next cut, went home and stewed.

Thing is - the urge to be on a stage hasn't left. I keep thinking over and over about "If you aren't having fun, you aren't doing it right." I haven't been doing it right for several years now. I'm not the most talented actor who ever graduated from my university. Um. Not even what you'd call close. But I did have passion for it once. It's nice to feel the passion for acting coming back. So although I fell and went boom, it's no big. I'm back in the game. I'm used to the fall-and-go-boom stuff. Happens at least 70% of the time. The other 30% though? Man. That's fun.